I have been wanting to write but procrastinated for the longest time, as I can remember. So this is the story of my life of those moments that I had not penned down my thots.
As office stress started to get more into me, and my menses went haywire, I started exercising (jazzercise @ stomp) in June 2009. Prior to that in Jan 2009, I had a foetus dropped (a miscarriage) without knowing I was pregnant. Since then I went to see the gynae at General Hospital Malacca. Was given Clomid to boost fertility and made regular bloodtest periodically. The first two months of 50mg on Clomid showed that I am not fertile and had not released any eggs whatsoever. That was the first cycle of Clomid. My weight then was 98kg.
The 2nd cycle of Clomid, I was put on 100mg and right after two months, the bloodtest showed the same results whilst the sperm count on hubby showed no problem with him. I was disheartened as my period had gone haywire, I have put on more weight due to Clomid and I have developed high blood pressure. The doctors were merely trainee-doctors and for the 3rd cycle, I was to be put on 150mg of Clomid. At this point, my period was 3 long weeks and just 1 week break of the pro-longed menses.
In May, I contacted an old acquaintance, Puan Zubaidah who had wanted me to join jazzercise since 2007 and told her, now I am ready to join her classes. I met and got to know Sharina the owner of the jazzercise place @ Stomp, and from there I was referred to Dr. Idora Mohd, who is also a regular jazzerciser. Dr. Idore put me on 2 types of medications (tablets_ to regulate my period again. I was told to continue jazzercise. My weight was then 96kg.
I started Clomid again in June, July and August. All at 50mg of Clomid and I was a regular jazzerciser 3-4 times a week. My menses was heavy so in August, Dr. Idora put me on TRANSAMINE CAP 250mg (2 capsule(s) to be taken 2 times daily for 5 days. September was fasting month hence I did not go for jazzercise. I did not have my period during fasting month but right on first day of Eid, I had my period and continue Clomid. Clomid’s prescription is to be taken on 2nd day of period for 5 days.
I was then told if I am not pregnant for the following month, Dr. Idora will proceed with IUI. Yet, I was advised to then use the ovulation test-kit and to proceed love-making session at 14th day of period. I followed all her advice and Alhamdulillah I got pregnant in October at 94kg.
The first trimester was a very trying time. I was very down and depressed worrying myself to death on how to feed my kid as I was no longer working. I was overly stressed from all angles too. With Zaeem and mom fighting and hitting me more as the punching bag. I cried and cried TONS and had no appetite to eat. I had not put on much weight still.
The 2nd trimester was getting better and I was happy as I passed 3 months I was allowed to drive and as I reach 20 weeks, I was told that it will be a girl and we already called her Marjaan and she was kicking rapidly. I was happy and hubby was touching me a lot and hugging me a lot and kissing me more than usual. My appetite had increased but I only weight 95.5kg.
Yet, Allah only borrowed Marjaan to me. At 23 weeks, we lost Marjaan as we found out there were no longer heartbeats at a regular check up. Hence, on Friday, March 26, 2010, I was given CYTOTEC tablets (200mcg @ MISOPROSTOL B), at a prescription (2 tablets to be taken as directed with meals). The instructions were to take after food and I shall feel contractions and the following morning to admit myself at the hospital and I will go into labour.
Saturday, March 27, 2010. Atif admitted me at about 8.30am. More tablets were given for contractions at 9am and as I dilated and the contractions were becoming unbearable, I was pushed to the labour room at about 12pm. I gave birth to my angel Marjaan at about 1.45pm. As I couldn’t eat in the morning, by then I felt, I had no energy already.
Mama and Atif with Najwa and Musa then took over the burial for Marjaan and we put her to rest next to my late dad. I stayed in the hosp with my cousin loan-ed to me by her husband, Minna stayed with me for a nite. Qurban came to visit me and picked her up the next day.
Sunday, March 28, 2010. I was discharged with the following tablets:
ZINNAT 250mg @ CEFUROXIME B
(1 tablet to be swallowed whole 2 times daily for 5 days)
ULTRACET @ TRAMADOL + PARACETAMOL (Y) B
(2 tablets to be taken 8 hourly, when required may cause drowsiness – controlled medicine)
XANAX 0.5mg @ ALPRAZOLAM PP
(1 tablet to be taken 2 times daily for 10 days – avoid alcoholic drink, if drowsy do not drive/operate machinery – controlled medicine)
DORMICUM 15mg @ MIDAZOLAM PP
(Half tablet to be swallowed every night for 10 days – with or without food, avoid alcoholic drink, if drowsy do not drive/operate machinery)
Later as I went to confinement, it was very trying as well, especially when the breasts were so painful and full of milk. Atif went to get some tablets for me and I was given DOSTINEX 0.5mg @ CABERGOLIN B (Half tablet to be taken 2 times daily for 2 days with meals – if drowsy do not drive/operate machinery). Honestly, the tablets to relief the pain on the breasts did not help much, as I continued to massage and release one or two drops of milk and put cabbage a lot on the breasts!
I only stayed for 3 weeks of confinement in Melaka, and continued the remaining days of confinement in Subang Jaya with Atif. I managed 2 times of massage with a mid-wife while in Melaka and the 3rd massage in USJ.
Will write more soon.
Penned on Monday, July 19, 2010 at 13:15pm.
Maddie
